August 21, 2013
In a time when the coming of the Lord is very near, I see myself finding the importance of communication in every venue possible. I received a comment by a person whose words shook me up. I love writing and find in every opportunity there is always something that I have going on in my head to write. If I was given the opportunity, I do believe that I could write for a living. Correctly, grammatically correct, no, but I could write. My brain is filled with stories of life, love, and God, but I find it hard to write them down and finish them. Maybe it is time; maybe it is life, but whatever the excuse I need to allow the communication to flow. I have been amazed at the number of people who have come across my blog even after my log time of not writing. As someone stated, I write with so much love. The song “Falling in Love with Jesus” is truly the testimony of my heart. Falling in love with Jesus changed my life in so many ways. It healed my hurt of loving, it helped me over come fear of loving, and it helped me see that it isn’t about me, but about others. That in the protection of His arms means that I will need to be protected from something and that means I must be vulnerable to be hurt. My head is flowing with a flood of thoughts today. As I sit and try to comprehend what is going on, I hear the words… lean not unto your own understanding. These are the same words that God gave me when I was asking Him why he was asking me to do something that was so out of my character. He is asking me to step out of the boat and trust Him with my whole heart, but that means I have to do the things that in my flesh don’t feel good. Those things that make me vulnerable to be hurt, which gives me the ability to truly feel His love in a different capacity. I’m excited for what things will happen next in my life, but right here an now I’ve got lots to say. Communication may have changed over the years, but I must find the way that God has given me the opportunity to communicate the heart beat of my life. Jesus has changed my life and is changing others lives as I write. If I believe in the scripture than I must believe that they overcame by the blood of the lamb and the words of their testimony. This means we will overcome by the blood of the lamb and the words of OUR testimony. The things that God has done in my life are nothing close to the things God can do in your life. The plans, the direction, the souls that He will put into your path is only a part of this great picture that I was speaking of earlier. It is the whole church and the whole world not the individual person and the individual purpose. I have found myself changed this last couple weeks with a true revelation of how every person plays a part in another persons life. I have always known this, but there has been a deep rooted understanding that I have been given of what God is doing in this very easy act of trust and love. My promise may be for me personally, but it includes hundreds, if not thousands. If you don’t know your purpose, hit your knees and ask God what it is. It isn’t that you don’t have one, it is that you haven’t listened or allowed Him to direct your path. May God direct you into the unknown, try your faith, and bring you to a deeper love than you ever could imagine.
August 19, 2013
As I get ready to take a journey of faith I find myself amazed at the beauty of being completed in Him. Understanding the meaning of being His servant, labouring fervently in prayer, and being completed in Him. Col 4:12 Epaphras, who is one of you, a servant of Christ, saluteth you, always labouring fervently for you in prayers, that ye may stand perfect and complete in all the will of God. In my Bible, there is a red cloth that I have written one of the most powerful Words that God has ever given me. During Youth Retreat 2008, our Youth President at the time, preached about the blood covering and its importance in our lives. I remember as I prayed for young ladies in the alter a true sense a understanding and deep conviction. It was there that I believe many made the decision on whether or not they were going to allow God to be their protector or if they were going to find comfort some where else. It was in the end of praying for others that I lifted my hands and head a wept. There was the overwhelming spirit of loneliness that swarmed over me and all I could do was cry for God to stop this heartache. At that time, I was healing from a deep heartache that was only to be the start of what God had desired for me. As I wept God used these words in prophesy to me. "God has heard your prayer and because of your meekness. He is going to answer them. From this day your life is going to turn upside down". For those of you who know me, from that day forward my life was changed. After another relationship distraction, God opened the doors for me to go to Sweden for 3 months and after returning I was asked to become the Central Canadian District's TCG Coordinator. From that time, I have gone on missions to Uganda and Kenya, preached a conference in a ladies prison, received my local license, preached for my Uncle Greg's church in Indiana, and been used to minister within my church in a wide capacity. I can truly say, my life was turned upside down. I can't imagine what life would be like without God's direction and divine intervention. He has set my pathway in directions that only He could set. I'm complete in Him and know what I want in life. I can't imagine my life any different nor do I desire the menial life I had planned for myself. There are times in our lives that we receive a word and when it comes we think we know what it is that God is speaking of, but never did I think that it was this. As I spoke of in my last blog, God is putting together my puzzle and as he sets each piece into place and reveals to me the picture that He has designed. I know that my picture is one that is part of others' pictures. God created me to be a part of something bigger and I'm excited to see it come together. I'm excited to share with you the journey that I will be going on next week. My plan is to fill you in on every step of the way. Keep yourself tuned in as I step out into the water of the unknown. My journey has been filled with exciting turns thus far... wait for the next chapter as God turns another page.